For this piece, I created six different notepad designs using photos I had taken in Hawaii, mimicking a souvenir aesthetic seen in gift shops, hotels, etc., a visual language built for visitors and consumers that I grew up ingesting as an obvious representation of my home. On them, I transcribe the original list, as well as phrases of poetry to supplement narrative about my personal attachment to it’s contents, citing my mother and grandfather. I title the beginning of the list, “List of Foods That Might Have Killed Him”. This irrational list becomes a way for me to rationalize the cause of death of my grandfather, who passed away during my mother’s childhood from the same disease which she later inherited. The work is ultimately comprised of 5 photographs, each of a couple sheets of the notepad paper with combinations of the list and poetry, mounted on a refrigerator, closely photographed, and printed at 40 x 30”. The texture of the fridge in the background of the images brings the list into a viewing space that references the domestic, the mundane, disregarded or unremarkable. I suggest ways in which disease becomes an invisible routine or set of rules in the lives of individuals, and acknowledge a generational relationship to sickness.